Aloha, so I'm almost done Breaking Dawn. It blissful and absolutley perfect, it really REALLY takes me mind off a lot of things and personally I don't give a flying fuck if you think its cheesy that a vampire romance novel makes my worries melt away even if it is for a couple of hours. Lemme let you all in on a little secret, turns out I leave for New York on June 5th...my doctors appointment is on the 3rd. My stomache churns whenever I think about it..I have to go in there and explain to him I am sleep deprived daily and my hair is falling out in clumps, I bruise easy and I lack more iron then I should. I'm actually feeling pretty faint thinking about it. If the fucker tells me its because of "too much stress" I'll uppercut him and walk out, I can't stand that bullshit. I am fucking scared and I don't wanna go in there with that bullshit answer I also don't want to hear that I have developed some disorder or disease. I hate medicine and I hate fucking health concerns. On a lighter note all our troubles have mushed into one big blurry vision, we all can't see past it but we can't look back, we're all facing this together and really we don't know what it is but we all know we don't deserve and it's gotten to the point its painful to bare..to carry on your shoulders like a ton of bricks. Happiness. You're so close we can taste you, so close we breathe you in during the morning and hold our breath during the day hoping you'll come along and knock the air out of us allowing us to realize you're there. Funny how I am relating happiness to air but both we need and can't live without...so why are we lacking in that department? Happiness..not air. We're not depressed or some bullshit. We're just so lost!!!
I flew like a kite today, higher than the sky. Long time not seshing. It was with Makayla and Nadeeka. We left the house and sat in a field, Makayla rode my Maybach there (and if you don't know what I'm referring to then it's your loss). We got our kites started and then just sat there, laid there, and laughed...it felt so good.
Everyone's on codeine but me! HOOK. A. SISTA. UP. Please Nabil!
Hahaha, anyway Nabz decided to go all Green Street Hooligan during her game and fucked up her ankle (yeah, yeah she's fine she's tougher than anyone I know, she took it like a true M.O.B. and got a purple cast!). Ironic how my homegirl Brianna broke her foot on Friday last week. Bitches been breakin' bones these days! No word of a lie. I'm bruisin' they're breakin'! Hahaha, hopefully you guys aren't in too much pain and I can't say get better soon since your soon is in 6 to 8 weeks haha, I love you both.
Goodnight!
FABIEN
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